Past year the days were dark for me. Actually it wasn’t just dark but they were horrific. I had gone through the worst breakup ever, lost family, lost friends. Lonely I could do something was just to sleep and nothing else. The whole month of September 2019 I hadn’t seen the world other than my bed. Losing what you only had is the last defeat you can have. Well I was inbred with loads of money before losing my parents so, it was easy for me to manage without getting into jobs with all luxuries till I could be eighteen in four years.

Trust me it was terribly hard, after all bed september I had no option but to get out of my pains and get ready for my pre-boards. It was though to manage all studies – career and the personal stuff together. I had to learn to cook food because I couldn’t order pepperoni all life long. Watching online videos of cooking I tried making few dishes though they weren’t so taste as my mother made but survival was the key.

Seven months I struggled as a mutt on street and the time after my pre-boards though I didn’t score so well I decided to have a pooch. But because of certain problems that wasn’t possible so I delayed the decision. There was nothing but a house and lots of books for me to built up my career as an architect by my fathers last will. I never did well in mathematics I always had very much of hatered for the subject. But I had no option but to practice.

I was friendless I wanted someone but I was sacred of talking to someone because I always had the fear of losing the person so I couldn’t make the guts to talk to someone. At a sudden time I realised why do I need someone if I have me, I have already lived nine months alone and I don’t think I would need someone unless I lose my self. I never needed any relationship for the past nine months because I was in relationship with my self.

I have always wondered how people lived all life alone but when I got a chance to experience it at beginning it was hard but as I started loving my self more than anyone else I knew it wasn’t so hard. We all always see the world as hard rock but if we try we can get in the warm and self loved peaceful world. Its not important that you get in the dreadful situation as mine but you would always experience loneliness at some point of life and at that point you have to always remember that you have to survive with yourself.

Regards,

Obscure Writter.